I also totally regret not taking many pictures his first month of life. I guess the days just flew by. I stayed by his side 24/7 watching him sleep so peacfully.
I realize that the next couple months are truly the last months of him being a full baby. He'll start walking... and communicating.. Like big kids do. I'm soaking in my snuggle bear. Day by day. The time flew so fast.
But everyday I love him more then I did yesterday.
So i'm totally motivated to study my ass off for this exam to get into college. Because with my school grants I want to buy a Cannon Rebel. <3
Lately I've just been trying to pull my head out of the clouds.
Curse less.
Clean more.
Sit less.
Read more.
Watch Tv less.
Learn more.
Excersize more.
Cook more.
I'm trying so harrrrrd to be the person I know I can be. But it's freaking hard.
And well, I've been at my brothers house for a while. He's starting basic training for the Air force soon. So I know the opportunity to just go over Vaughans house and hang out with him like old times, any time I want.... is probably going to end soon. It's kind of sad that our whole lives we never said "I love you" or hugged. We hated each other up until I got pregnant and stopped being a selfish bitch. So now whenever I hug him, I squeeze a little bit tighter and feel a lot less awkward. Because... well he's my brother. And their is just somethings that no one will understand but him. I hope we always stay close. No matter how far the air force takes him.
lol. Studying simply for a camera.
ReplyDeleteThat last part made me tear up. ); At least you're only 16, and he's only 19. Y'all have plenty of time. :)
Hi! Thanks for commenting on my blog. :)
ReplyDeleteYour son is SO CUTE! I love that little curl!! If you haven't already, you should check out one of the blogs in my sidebar, Oh Jazmyn. Jazmyn is 19 {so a young mama too}. Of course, I consider MYSELF a young mom and I'm 22, hah! :) From the quick look I got of your blog, it looks like you're doing a great job.
PS: I have a Canon Rebel and I love, love, love it! and definitely recommend it.
You're so grown up for such a young lady, don't be to hard on on yourself we all want to do more, swear less so on, you're doing an amazing job, I could only imagine how hard it has been for you as a young single mother.
ReplyDeleteI'm lucky to have a great camera but also wish I had it when Harper was super young, I have no good newborn shots just the ones I had done at the hospital but next time i'll be ready! Hopefully you will have the money soon.