Hello, hello! How are you? I'm fine.
Things are quiet around here, but lately that is just the way I like it.
Besides Eli being so so so wild.
I intend to stay far away from any drama.

in other news....

I spilled cereal on my laptop. aaaaggghhh.
Quickly poured rice over the keyboard and let it soak.
It still is working fine, but since I removed some keys to get the rice out, I can't seem to put the keys back in! :(
So as i click the tiny dot of a Shift bar button, I promise myself to never eat at my desk again.



p.s   T-Minus 6 days till Eli turns one!! ahhhhhh!!!

p.s I'm probably insane for doing the same thing over and over and hoping for a different result.

p.s this is random and pointless.

Dancing, walking every where, climbing, and laughing at strangers.

Turning into a toddler so fast I can't even grasp it.

Started riding the city buss....

Lately I've been stretching, and doing crunches.
I'm strengthening  myself to learn how to do Union Yoga with Josey.
It's so freaking cool. We're going to try it out. :P ha! Should be interesting...

I'm going to miss this little bundle of joy...

when I go to COLLEGE on MONDAY. :)

**Edit

Luckly it's only for a couple of hours on mon, wed. fri.

I can't wait! but im nervous.

Eli's First Birthday WISHLIST. (or mine...)

Eli's Birthday is coming up! September 13th!
I thought i'd do a little wishlist for him...


(Amy's IceCream) Bouncy Cow -35$

Source: shop.amysicecreams.com via Amadeus on Pinterest

Red Toms (Size 4)- 30$

Source: toms.com via Amadeus on Pinterest

Toy broom set. Little helper- 10$

Source: amazon.com via Amadeus on Pinterest

Toilet Seat- 32$

Source: target.com via Amadeus on Pinterest

Little Vacuum- 30$

Source: amazon.com via Amadeus on Pinterest

and of course...


Diapers...(Size 3, 4)

(Size 12months-24months) Clothes!!

New Chapter.

Hi ya'll. :)

After putting off college registration till the last minute, I managed to enroll into two classes for this semester. One on campus, one online. I am beyond excited. I'm ready to start this new chapter in my life. I want to come out of this stronger, smarter, and independent.

If you ask me why I put off registering for so long, I'd probably say... "because I feel guilty."
I feel guilty because I never actually graduated high school. I dropped out after my freshman year and just sort of slid my way into college without much effort. Though, I'm extremely blessed to have this opportunity, I don't always feel I deserve it.  Also, I didn't think registering would be so difficult last minute. Lesson learned.

I'm not going to take this for granted. I know that school will consume my life for the next few years, but I have to keep in mind that it is either this, or a job at Mcdonalds. I need to do this. Not just for myself, but for my future and my sons future.
I start next weeeeek!!
I soooo appreciate my sister, Sarah, for loaning me the money.
and I sooooooo appreciate the little old lady who has offered to watch Eli.

YAY!!!!!
I'm a 16yr old mom, and im in college.
I'd like to see you do that!

My little boy has literally grown so fast right in front of my face. One month Shy of a YEAR OLD. I haven't taken my eyes off of him this whole time and he still seems to surprise me. I can't believe how much he's capable of understanding. I've never practiced clapping hands or kissing with Eli, but when I requested it he somehow knew exactly what to do. He picks up on new things ALL the time. I asked him to throw the ball to me, and somehow, just like that.. he knew what needed to be done. He's so smart. And I'm pretty sure he knows more then I can even give him credit for. This is seriously my favorite age by far. He's so engaged and curious and not to mention, silly!

Here's some words I know he understands but still can't speak..

Grandpa
Where?
Tree
Flower
Shifter ( in the car)
Kiss me
Clap your hands
Im going to get you!
Throw it
Guitar
Mama
Food
Nana (boobies.)

Hes prety amazing  and beyond cute. I couldnt be more proud to say he's mine.
He's walking more and more everyday. Which I seriously love.

Even though he's growing and learning so fast... He's still my little baby who neeeds me. :)
and I'm loving every second.
SLOWWWW DOWNNNN.

When I tightly wrap my hands around your bottom, and you rest your sleepy little head on my shoulder. 

When you reach for me.. 

When you look for me..

 When you cry for me..

When we suddenly get a glace of one another, and can't help but to smile..

It is then, that I see how much I mean to you, and you to me.

The smallest of things, mean the most.

I love you Eli.

To the moon and back.

 

Eli, you are just as amazing and beautiful to me as the day you were born. I admire your face every day and each day I get to spend with you is better then the last. You make me feel so alive. I love you so much pumpkin. These 10 months have gone by so fast and I can't wait to keep going. 

I'm soaking in every moment of life as your mom. It's nothing less then wonderful.

You are such a sweetheart.

Hi my loves. Sorry for my lack of updates. I'm not going to shoot you any bull crap excuses. The truth is, I just have been feeling shitty about myself. I'm working on registering for A.C.C, and I feel yucky nervous about that. I also am completely addicted to food, and feel sooo guilty about how much I eat. I defiantly am disappointed in myself. Haven't been making all that great choices. But things are changing.

Eli on the other hand is doing so well. He's 10 months old. Probably my favorite age ever! His personality is shining through and it's so adorable. He'll pick up on me being silly and play along. He claps when I ask him too, and gives me open mouth kisses when I ask for them. He loves being chased. His favorite thing is cuddling with his mama. He talks all days longg about " ba ba ba. da da da da da da. na na na. ma ma ma". He is taking more and more steps everyday. The best part about this age is he doesn't really mind going with the flow. He thinks its hilarious to scream at me. Ohhh he's precious.

I love him so so so so much.

Pictures later homie.

Uncut.

I've been wanting to wright about this for awhile. I just never knew how to start..

TO CIRCUMCISE OR TO NOT?

Let's talk about my strong opinions on penis. Eli's not circumcised penis, that is.

First of all, after I found out I was having a boy I had to figure out what was the best thing to do. For me, It was sooo obvious that I shouldn't cut 15 square inches of sexual nerves off my son's penis just because everyone else is. He was born with foreskin... so he should probably stay that way. It's there for a reason. In fact I'm going to get a little bit nerdy on you. The penis foreskin is there to protect the most sensitive part, the head. When you remove the foreskin, via circumcision, the head starts to form a callus to protect itself. (Umm? If I was a man I'd want my head to stay as sensitive as possible!! Callused head? BLAH!)
When we have sex our fore-skin releases a drug into our body that makes us feel in love. Well.. Unfortunately for circumcised men, they never get to feel that deep emotional sexual connection. Pooor poor them. Someone cut off a piece of their body. Because it's the thing to do? Bullshit. Rates are 50/50. Besides, who gives a crap. Stop following the crowd. Becuase of the risk of infection? Bullshit. My vagina is just as likely to get infected.

Get your shit straight and STOP CIRCUMCISING. It's unnecessary.
I like my penises UNCUT.
the way god made them.

I am your Mom, you are my child.

I am your quiet place, you are my wild.

I am your calm face, you are my giggle.

I am your wait, you are my wiggle.

I am your dinner, you are my chocolate cake.

I am your bedtime, you are my wide awake.

I am your lullaby, you are my peekaboo.

I am your goodnight kiss, you are my I love you.

I'm overwhelmed. 

There is so much I need to do and I just don't feel ready. I know that it's time to get a job and start college SOON. I also know that as soon as I start these things I am just another step closer to being completely on my own. I'm desperately holding on to my youth, not wanting to let go. It's so nice not to worry about house bills. I am, although, ready for the responsibility to be mine. I don't want to rely on anyone but myself. Growing up without anyone by my side to encourage me or guide me is the most challenging thing I've ever had to do.

 But in the end... I know I'll make it and I'll be stronger then ever before.

God, pleeeaase help me as I cross over the tracks to independence. I'm scared, but beyond ready.

Milk.

I'm a strong believer in doing things the natural way. So of course, breast feeding was my only option when it came down to providing my baby with the nutrition he needs. Babies are intended to drink mama's milk. Plain and simple. So how come people think that once their child hits the one year mark, it is okay to start supplementing cow's milk into their diet. It's so unnatural to drink another animals breast milk. Cow's milk was meant for baby cows to grow large in a short period of time. It wasn't made for us. Did you know cow's milk is the cause of some obesity, calcium deficiency, allergies, heart disease, cancer, and other health ailments. It is injected with tons of hormones and chemicals. We were all born lactose intolerant, don't you know? It's UNNATURAL. It's disgusting to me to think that you will replace your milk for your baby with dirty fat cows milk. It actually pisses me off.

I plan on breast feeding Eli till he's three. I'm completely fine with going past that as well. My milk is an excellent source of  the nutrition he needs until he's old enough to find those nutrients in a verity of different foods. Almond milk for example has 50% more calcium then cows milk. When I say I'll be breast feeding him till he's 3, that doesn't mean you'll see my little boy sucking on my boob all the time. He'll most likely only want a little when he wakes up or before bed time. A warm glass of mamas milk. Just the way it was meant to be.

(Not my picture)

I wonder why people think is it normal to give a kid a glass of cows milk? When in fact it is completely odd.

Would you let your kid suck on this??
Would you suck on this yourself? Your an adult for crying out loud. You don't need it.

 

June 17th.

Today is a special day for Eli. He took his first unassisted steps. His first of thousands to come. His wide mouth smile, and the courage that was painted so proudly on his little face, shot a strong feeling of pride and love throughout my whole body. I scooped him up in my arms and danced around the room cheering on his new accomplishment. I smothered him in kisses as he laughed and squealed. I feel so incredibly blessed to be able to witness my son grow. From a little peanut inside my belly, to a little boy and beyond. He's perfect in my eyes. 9 Months old, and walking? Oh my. He's so strong. So smart. So handsome.
He fills my heart with joy and love. He makes me feel alive. He let's me see life in a new and exciting way.

I'm so proud of everything he does...
He's my angel.

I'll deff. get a video of him taking steps!!

Day 1 of Shred

Here's my before pictures.
I was deffinetly excited to get started. But... half way through I was breathing heavy and wanting to just. be. done. My motivation was, " I have to keep going for as long as the insturctor keeps going. Push through". After the 20 minutes was up... My skin felt damp, my heart was racing, my blood was flowing, and I was breathing hard! But I felt so accomplished and glad I did it!

Here's some challenges I faced throughout the day.
and some Tips that help me.

As soon as I wake up I fill my BPA-free water bottle half way full. 

You should really get one. 

It helps me keep track of how much I'm drinking, and defiantly makes drinking more easier. 

It's also super easy  to carry around the house and mr. Eli can't spill it!

I take a post-natal Vitamin, drink my water, and begin the 30 day shred.

After I'm done working my fat lazyness off...

 I relax for a little while.

Then I make a light breakfast. 

Either 2 eggs and a fruit, or Cereal with almond Milk.

The hardest thing for me to do is to say no to things like this.

A warm goooey brownie with bluebell Icecream.

Or perhaps my dad will offer me McDonalds for dinner.

I need to learn to not eat just because It taste good.

But to eat, just to energize and fuel my health.

So i made trail mix. Separated it into little baggies.

and when my munchies get the best of me..

I snack.

By the way: Trail mix is meant to be eaten one at a time.

 Savor the flavor and eat it slowly. Not one right after the other. Or a handfull.

Just CHILL and enjoy the treat.

(Note to self)

In other news.. Today Eli started standing with no hands for a good minute at a time.

I'm.... so proud. I love him.

He even can hold ONE of my hands, and take a few steps.

A quick Vote for meee? It would mean so much to me. Really. 

The little things count the most.

I'm going to be honest. My mom isn't apart of my life to guide me and give my any much-needed advice.
So each new mom I meet is a blessing to me in some way. I learn so much from them. The occasional feedback I get, is really appreciated. I'm serious.


Anyway, I'll cut to the point. I want more followers. I want to meet tons of new people and hear feed back from lots of differant moms. I want to be well known as a Teen mom blogger.

It would mean tons if you'd help me grow as a blogger.

Just a few clicks. and go about your day.
Please. Please. PLEASE.




CAN'T SAY NO TO THISSSS:

When I blog, I pour out my thoughts. No matter how random they may be. I hope for at least one person to completely understand how I feel. I love reading about dozens of  different little families blossoming. Even if we may not be friends, or never spoke to each other, I already feel so close to you. I feel your love bleeding from the pages on your blog. I feel your personality pouring out through each word. Bloggers have inspired me to exercise, eat better, and dress cuter. I've learned countless of  new things and different perspectives of life.

Blogging has become so close to me. Like a dear friend.

After all, I have no friends. I spend all my time being a mother and doing what I need to do. But I am not alone, ooooh no. I know many others who are doing just as I am. 

And I'm loving life. What about ya'll?

It's kind of like I get to search the country and find only the coolest, most inspiring mamas to get to know. 

I hope to meet many more wonderful women to look up to.

eli at 1 month. ooooooh. love love.

Oh boy, Eli is growing again.
He's NINE months old today. I caaaaan't believe it.

 In a few short weeks he has learned so much. It seems like everyday he learns something new and gets a little bit stronger. He gathered up the courage to let go of the furniture and stand for a short while. He's still practicing but I think he'll master it any day! I watch him silently in awe from across the room. I smile with pride. He preformed his first sign. "Mama."  Oh, and when he cries it goes a little something like "mamamamamaaaama" It pulls at the heart strings I never thought existed. He attemps to sign other words like.. "Grandpa",  "nana", and I even think he's trying to finger spell "Eli".  He points at things in the most random moments. When his grandpa takes him to "drive" in the parking lot, excitement over welms him. He tightens all his anxious mustles and does the only thing he can.. Scream!!! A very high pitch squeal. The same rare excitement comes when he sees guitars.( As I type that word, I pronouced it "gee-tars" in my head.  because that's what we tell eli they are...) He also looooves swimming and will squeal and laugh and smile. It pulls every one of my heart stings. He is such a typical little boy, it's adorable.

My pride and joy.

My adorable snuggle bear.

My best friend.























My son.

My first love.










He growls and grunts.

He loves boobs, fast cars, and gee-tars.


















These pictures are taken by emily blincoe. She is suuuuuch a great picture taker. I'm so glad she
she's my sister! I look up to her tons.

Simple please.

After sharing a room with my baby for 9 months, I'm just about overloaded with colors and toys.
I can't wait to have my own, simple room.
That's why I totally re did my blog to something more simple.
I feel so cluttered.

Eli is literally, king of my world.

Weekends feel like I'm constantly doing something.
going here and there... doing this and that.
missing a few naps. and letting the hours fly by.
I love it.

Yay I bought some craftttss. Hot glue gun! Paint, and glitter. THE FUN STUFF! 

I've been so inspired by pinterest.

My first master piece. :)

I just got this APP, and i'm now totally addicted to instagrammm.

shopping for new clothes with eli! Always great.

This is joseyyyy!! my brothers girlfriend. Check out her cute blog.

My whole family showed up at Barton springs to hangout, tan, and swim.

We were not there 3 minutes, when it started POURING. Out of freakin' no where!!

so.. we all went to eat icecream.

 the perfect thing to do when it rains on our sunny day!

I cringed everytime Eli's aunt emily gave him icecream. 

I'm such a helicopter mom..

I love how Eli holds on with this little arm.

Eli and grampa. soo much love.